As much as I would like to follow it to a T, I just don't have that kind of money to be spending on a container of the shake mix. If I start ignite, will there be options to substitute that meal with actual food?
I have a busy life that is spent mostly at home between a home job, online school, and my son. I don't have the luxury of going to a fancy gym, or even a not-so-fancy gym to use their equipment, but I don't want to let that stop me.
I have been overweight most of my life. I grew with family and friends telling me I would look so beautiful if I just wasn't fat. I was one of the most picked on kids in school and everybody knew it. I grew to hate myself and everybody around me.
I'm not so full of anger and hate for everyone like I was as a kid, but I do still hate myself. Sometimes when I look in the mirror I can see the beauty there, inner and outer, but then my eyes travel to my stomach and I just feel sick. I never thought I would be as big as I am today, and it's all in my midsection. The thing I hate most of all is I can almost feel confident about myself and the way I look, and then I have to sit and depending on the clothes I'm wearing or where I am, it's like my body just balloons outward, stretching my clothes to an embarrassing level, or maybe I can't fit in the seat or the booth.
I can't live this way anymore. I have gone through so many changes in a year. I was homeless, I had my son taken from me, I lost my car, I lost my husband to another woman, I was failing school. My weight skyrocketed and it reached the highest it had ever been. 312 pounds. I truly, never in my life thought I would ever see the 300s.
Now, I'm getting my life back on track. I've said good riddance to the cheating ex. I have my son back. I'm rocking my classes, even if I'm on the verge of getting kicked out for monetary reasons.
I realize there is one thing my life has lacked for what I was going to say the past year, then decade, then realize, it's really been my entire life. I need to take time out for myself, and love myself. In order to do that, I need to feel proud of myself.
I have lost over 40 pounds already, but my sedentary lifestyle has caused me to plateau. Since my work doesn't allow me to get out much, I decided to try this site and see how well it works. Who knows, maybe this is that one last thing my life needs right now to help turn things completely for the better.
We'll see. Until then, I figure I might keep track of my progress blog-style in hopes that it might help keep me motivated and give me something to look back on as the changes happen.